Hello my name is Amal Al Khaburi! I am 44 years old current weight 94 kg finally heading to a healthy weight. Which started 2 years ago, where I weighed 396 LBS/over 180++ kgs.
You see I have never been “the skinny girl” in fact I have spent my whole life overweight. I have been the butt of many jokes, and in general I have used food to comfort myself. I have been through many trials in my 44 years that haven’t helped my weight situation. In 2013 it all changed. I gave birth to my perfect little boy, Noah, weigh was 352 LBS/160 kg give or take. He came into my life exactly when I needed him, as I was going through so much in my personal life. 2017 was when it all clicked. I saw him developing the same eating habits I had. I fought too hard to have him, and here I was allowing him to develop in the same manner as myself.
It’s amazing isn’t it that we cannot see yourself even when you looking at yourself in the mirror every single day. I honestly do believe I was in denial, and ignoring all the signs, like cloths we not becoming any smaller, I could not walk much, needed help in wearing my cloths so many I can’t even remember.
In 2017, I was fearful that if something didn’t change, I wouldn’t be around to see all of my Noah’s milestones. They say hindsight is 20/20, but if I could go back and talk to my overweight self this is what I would say to her and all those who are fighting this battle. I would also tell myself to take all the energy I was putting into self-loathing and all the negativity about myself and invest in the time for myself, turning my self into a better version of me, since I am the one who matters!
“Stop wishing for a better figure, and start loving yourself first”
I spent so much time wishing I had the perfect figure and trying to be that perfect woman/girl that you hear about, but they don’t exist. You know the one I am talking about, the one:
- who never has had weight problems
- that girl who can wear that dress and not have lumps and bumps
- make the dress sway and flow too
and guess what I have come to discover that she doesn’t exist and that “perfect” girl has her own issues, sad but true, it is just that they aren’t as visible as being overweight.
I Embrace all the things that make me! I love myself so much even my Fab Mr. AS ❤️, asks me how can I love him and Noah so much, if I love myself so much first?
My reply is “if I didn’t love myself as I do now, then I would not be able to love them so much and always be grateful for all that I have. And that they would be miserable around me”
I don’t have a perfect life, I have my own struggles in raising our little boy and working on a beautiful marriage is not a walk in the park always, all relationships have their ups and downs. But I can promise you this, you will FLOURISH, as the conqueror of your own battle, only if you put all your energies into being the best version of yourself ❤️