Hello my name is Amal Al Khaburi! I am 44 years old current weight 94 kg finally heading to a healthy weight. Which started 2 years ago, where I weighed 396 LBS/over 180++ kgs.
You see I have never been “the skinny girl” in fact I have spent my whole life overweight. I have been the butt of many jokes, and in general I have used food to comfort myself. I have been through many trials in my 44 years that haven’t helped my weight situation. In 2013 it all changed. I gave birth to my perfect little boy, Noah, weigh was 352 LBS/160 kg give or take. He came into my life exactly when I needed him, as I was going through so much in my personal life. 2017 was when it all clicked. I saw him developing the same eating habits I had. I fought too hard to have him, and here I was allowing him to develop in the same manner as myself.
It’s amazing isn’t it that we cannot see yourself even when you looking at yourself in the mirror every single day. I honestly do believe I was in denial, and ignoring all the signs, like cloths we not becoming any smaller, I could not walk much, needed help in wearing my cloths so many I can’t even remember.
In 2017, I was fearful that if something didn’t change, I wouldn’t be around to see all of my Noah’s milestones. They say hindsight is 20/20, but if I could go back and talk to my overweight self this is what I would say to her and all those who are fighting this battle. I would also tell myself to take all the energy I was putting into self-loathing and all the negativity about myself and invest in the time for myself, turning my self into a better version of me, since I am the one who matters!
“Stop wishing for a better figure, and start loving yourself first”
I spent so much time wishing I had the perfect figure and trying to be that perfect woman/girl that you hear about, but they don’t exist. You know the one I am talking about, the one:
- who never has had weight problems
- that girl who can wear that dress and not have lumps and bumps
- make the dress sway and flow too
and guess what I have come to discover that she doesn’t exist and that “perfect” girl has her own issues, sad but true, it is just that they aren’t as visible as being overweight.
I Embrace all the things that make me! I love myself so much even my Fab Mr. AS ❤️, asks me how can I love him and Noah so much, if I love myself so much first?
My reply is “if I didn’t love myself as I do now, then I would not be able to love them so much and always be grateful for all that I have. And that they would be miserable around me”
I don’t have a perfect life, I have my own struggles in raising our little boy and working on a beautiful marriage is not a walk in the park always, all relationships have their ups and downs. But I can promise you this, you will FLOURISH, as the conqueror of your own battle, only if you put all your energies into being the best version of yourself ❤️
The picture on the left was me at maybe 178++ kgs and the right was this evening.
The road to growth is entirely different for everyone but there are some common principles that affect us all.
Dont compare, it will rob you of hope
Once upon a time you made a choice. Only you can change your future
Where do you want to be tomorrow? Only you have the power to choose.
there are days I see myself in a group photo and think how in the hell after losing almost 88kgs am I STILL the biggest in the foto
Or when some, who think i should have lost more!!??
So my stomach is hanging and that area is still big. I am not hear to please anyone
Its slow but it’s steady.
Choose wisely .
Creating My Own Stepping Stones
the Battle of the bulge is not easy: we become moody, edgy, irritable, touchy and so much more. So its easy to give up and fall of the wagon. That is why a support group is necessary.
So I have been Lucky that I have my own little support group with me, its been a bumpy ride but we are getting there.
So when I started my weight loss journey and decided to join the GYM my mom laughed as did the immediate family who are close to me. You see I had done this so many times no one thought I would manage to pull it off.
Don’t get me wrong, they were tired of my joining the GYM and not going through and they all thought “ok another failed attempt” But this time what no one realized was that I have had blessings sent to me (everything happens for a reason)
Putting myself out there to show it can be done. Did you know that I had surgery on my wrist in the past where I lost 80% of my movement on my right arm, a long time ago and now calcification on my right shoulder, so I can’t really do very heavy weights or use too much of my body weight as pressure on that part of my body. However, I haven’t allowed that to hinder my workout. This wasn’t easy but I killed it, So Never Give Up 🥰. With Coach @s.velida_my awesome coach who takes all my injuries and still finds a way around it @azerwellness
My weight loss has slowed down a lot, and that need for instant personal gratification tends to weigh heavily in my mind.
I catch myself wanting to find some cure all pill, or an extreme weight loss diet in order to shed an extreme amount of weight in a short time.
So I posted I was in the bottom of the pit, and I knew it was related to my love for food. I am very bravely taking a short 7 day break from DIETING not the GYM.
I take an OATH, where I promise to eat in moderation. I promise not to DIET, I promise to WORKOUT.
Having learnt the hard way, that to #BETHECHANGE , the mindset and lifestyle needs to change. What I need to learn is not to be over CRITICAL bout myself.
We learnt as children, that we needed superheroes in our lives, well I decided to become #MYOWNSUPERHERO
What was I thinking!! FYI – NO SURGERY